Hang up your coat, and stay for a while.

So let me just start by saying, I do NOT want this weekend to end!! Despite the sudden drop in temperature this morning that I was sooo not expecting, today has turned out to be a very pretty day. Let me add to that, I do not mind the cold, by any means, I love it actually...I just wasn't expecting it, nor the dreary rain that came with it. But it is beautimus outside now!
So, this morning I woke up and was in the mood for breakfast food. We got up, went to Publix and paid double what we normally would for just a few items, and came home and got to cooking.
Being in the kitchen, cooking alongside my hubby is always fun. Kind of takes the work out of it. Anyway, once it was all done, we had a nice delish breakfast complete with pancakes, eggs, grits, bacon & sausage! Can you say yum?!
So far the rest of the day has just been really chill, relaxing being our main goal. We started the laundry, but that's about as far as it's going! Yesterday was b-e-a-Utiful! I actually slept in, seeing as how I managed to get a little cold this week, but that didn't stop me from enjoying my Saturday. The hub & I headed to TooJays for lunch, and it was well worth it...If you ever have a chance to get the "Greek Wrap", DO! It's delish. And there bacon cheeseburger is noteworthy aswell. After that, we walked around the villages a bit, such a pretty day to, and then headed back home. Daniel once again dazzled me with his amazing grillerman skills, fixing us some marinaded chicken, which was his concoction, and made us delicious chicken salads. We definitely ate well this weekend to say the least!
Anyway, I hope your weekends were as good as mine...If only they lasted longer!

Am I my own worst enemy?...

Have you ever wanted something soo incredibly bad that you literally sike yourself out of even attempting to try for it? Have you ever had an opportunity, no matter how small the odds may be, that presented itself to you, something that you would absolutely love to do, something that would make you happy to the very core to be apart of, and yet you find yourself picking out each and every one of your flaws, speaking reasons of why it could never happen to you? That its just too good to be true... Why would God allow me to be chosen for something that burns so deep inside of me, a desire that is constantly unfilled. Why would he allow me to be taunted repeatedly by things that I want so bad, but I am so far away from achieving...?
Or is it God reminding me constantly of that unfulfilled desire that I am purposefully neglecting because I am being ruled by fear? Fear that I wouldn't be good enough, fear that I wouldn't be liked....Fear that I wouldn't add up. Fear that I could never be what I want to be...

Just a few moments ago, I managed to come across a tiny crack in a very small doorway that could lead to bigger things, God willing. And before I even was able to come up with a plan to walk towards it, I filled myself with the lies that I wouldn't stand out...that I wouldn't dazzle...Despite the fact that the odds are slim to none and there are millions of people wanting this same thing I am, I, for a few minutes completely talked myself out of even attempting this dream, from even giving it a shot... Even when I didn't go looking for this, I just happened to stumble upon it. It's amazing how easily we can tear ourselves apart, ripping through each layer until you are so fragile you can barely stand on your own. We give alot of credit to the enemy, but he isn't omnipresent, he's just the snowball effect... He whispers one thing, and let's our unguarded minds do the rest...

So, I thought this would be a little easier.
It seems that every time I get that creative urge, I'm somewhere that I can't let it out. And then when I finally am, I'm at a loss for words, or too distracted.
Guess I'll have to try a little harder.